I’m Glad I’m not a Goldfish12/30/2017 Happy Saturday! My apologies for the post being super late today, but as the typical saying goes, better late than never!
I hope you all had a wonderful week. Today has been a crazy day, but still wonderful. I think I’m officially a Tea drinker. I’ve always liked sweet iced tea, but hot tea hasn’t ever been my thing. However, lately I’ve been wanting to try it out so I went to the store and bought some Jasmine-Green tea. I absolutely love it! It’s calming and comforting for some reason. If you have any hot teas that you enjoy, let me know by leaving a comment! When I was at Wal-Mary buying my tea, I noticed a girl who had very colorful hair. I just admired the confidence it must take to do something so bold. I’ve wanted to color my hair cobalt blue for some time now, but I’m a little apprehensive because my hair is basically my pride and joy, but how fun would it be to have blue hair?! I also noticed many people of all different ages and skin colors. This isn’t my first time having these thoughts, just my first time expressing these thoughts in writing, but I just am amazed at how cool the human race is! We are all so different, physically and mentally. We each have lives and families and different opinions on many things. Why aren’t we all the same? Why do we all have different physical appearances, styles, opinions, traditions and beliefs? Because if we didn’t, LIFE WOULD BE BORING. People watching is one of the most interesting things because you see the pure innocence of people and they don’t even know. Go to a coffee shop and just sit down and watch all the people that come in and out, hustling about their daily routine and disappearing like they were never there in the beginning. Back to their lives, their families, their jobs, out of your presence, never to be seen by you again. Thats the beauty of it. The fact that we don’t know everyone. That we have the opportunity to meet new people and see these strangers each day. We all have unique struggles that only those close to us may know about, some we keep locked up inside of us, never to be seen by the light of day or the ears of another. Theres these song lyrics by Bring Me The Horizon that go “We all carry these things inside that no one else can see, they hold us down like anchors, and drown us out at sea.” I feel like many people can relate to this. Pain is an inevitable part of life and for some reason, we as humans feel as if we cant express our sorrow outwardly, so we hold it all inside until it becomes unhealthy. (Guilty) However, we all experience joy at some point as well because the sun can’t shine without a little rain. The human race just amazes me because of the small innocent moments like when a couple is walking down the street holding hands, or when a child picking wildflowers hands a bunch to his mother just because he loves her and was thinking of her while he played. Or when an old couple smiles at each other like they are the only two people they need on the planet, like their love is what they depend on regardless of the years and trials and things they’ve been through. When a woman is just humming along as she walks to her car after buying groceries, on her way to cook dinner for her family. The little moments are what I live for. The little moments I get to witness as I look at other people living their lives, getting so caught up in the moment that they don’t even care who is watching. The most beautiful moments happen when we are just being carefree. Completely pure and raw, like honey. No matter how self aware we are around other people, if you pay attention, you’ll notice the brief moments that happen when someone gets so caught up in living that they are nothing but truly themselves. When I catch people in a moment like that it makes me want to just sit down and talk to them. Not just small talk. I can’t stand small talk. I just want to talk to people I don’t even know and ask them everything about themselves. Their favorite movies, songs, books, the hard things they’ve been through, the loved ones they’ve lost, how they got all their scars and where they want to be 20 years from now. I want to swim inside the thoughts of each person I meet until I drown in a sea of their life story. People leave me in awe, so intricate and detailed, unlike simple animals. I’m so glad I’m not a goldfish. With love,
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Friends and Foundations12/23/2017 Hello! It’s Saturday! We survived another week! I love simple Saturday mornings, especially when I get my coffee so perfect like I did today. It’s seriously heavenly. Anyway, I wanted to start off by letting you all know, that I’m going to be starting up an Email list. How it works is when you sign up for it, I send out an Email every Saturday (which is the day I post my blog every week) letting you know the blog is up and ready, with a link straight to the site from your Email. This makes it easy to access so you can enjoy reading it just as much as I enjoy writing it! There’s a form at the bottom of this post that I ask all of you who read this, to subscribe by entering your email and hitting the “subscribe to newsletter” button. It’s that simple and easy! Thank you in advance for the support! So, as you all know, Christmas is in a few days. (Yay!) im not sure if anyone else can relate to this, but I often get nostalgic around this time of year. I start to remeber what my life was like at this point of last year, and I reflect on how much has changed. A lot has changed within myself over the past year, I’ve grown a ton mentally and emotionally. Life is one big lesson and wisdom is the reward we gain from paying attention, and honestly, that’s extremely valuable. The main thing that’s on my mind lately, however, is the friendships I’ve built and lost in such a short amount of time. People I never would have imagined becoming so close to, are now my people, and ones that I never dreamed of losing, have drifted away from the grasp of my fingertips. This isn’t the first time I’ve experienced losing friends, perhaps losing isn’t a correct term, maybe “bidding farewell to” is more adequate. Part of living and growing is that past relationships change and diminish, but with every loss, there is a gain, so other relationships flourish. There was a time when I didn’t understand this. I felt so hurt that people I promised to stand by forever in our friendship, who promised me the same, just walked away as if I were a toy a young child left on the school bus. I questioned myself, “why wasn’t I good enough?”, “What did I do?”, “how could they still go after I have given my all?”. The answer is simple. Sometimes, God gives us people as tools to shape us into the human we’re supposed to be. These people are simply in our lives for a few months to a few years, and then they slowly leave. It hurts, because we can’t see what God is doing, so we feel abandoned instead of taught. However, that doesn’t change the fact that these temporary friends were in our lives for a purpose. It doesn’t change every laugh, cry, adventure, dark moment, heartbreak, victory and memory we shared with them. That’s something nobody can take away from you. On the other hand, sometimes people part ways because they push you out and hurt you until you just let them leave. Letting go doesn’t hurt any less than realizing someone has silently left your life. Just because you decided to let them part ways or even made that decision for them, doesn’t mean you won’t miss the times you shared. We are all just human, and we aren’t perfect. Life gets messy and some people just don’t know how to let other people be tools to help them grow, because they don’t realize they need watering. The thing is, everyone, no matter how old you are or where life has taken you, has room for growth. Now, not everyone in your life is going to leave just because a few old friends did. I consider myself very blessed because I have a couple of friends that no matter how long we spend apart from each other, nothing changes. We just pick up right where we left off, fill each other in on the adventures of our life since the last time we talked, and that is that. We’re right back on track and our friendship is just as strong as always. It’s not awkward or tense, it’s comfortable and uplifting. I value these friends more than they will ever know. If you have friends like this, never let them go. Like I stated before, sometimes, God uses people as temporary tools to help shape us, but He also gives us people as a foundation. That’s is where these friends I just mentioned fall in. They are there no matter what and it would take some serious equipment to tear them out of our lives. These people never tear us down, they are steadfast and show us love and forgiveness no matter what, and they are always honest with us, even when the truth is so NOT what we want to hear. A little tough love never hurt anyone. Cherish every friend you have for the time you have them, and when God pulls them away from you, don’t try to hold onto them. He knows best and has a plan, and if they were meant to be they will be, or they will come back. There’s a saying that goes, “let them go, if it’s meant to be, they’ll come back. If they don’t, they were never yours in the first place.” I strongly belive in this saying, because I’ve experienced in my life. It’s so true, and once they come back, that’s when you give your everything to hold onto them. When you know, you know. You’ll know, whenever the time is right, who was only supposed to be in your life for a season, and who is there as your foundation. Try to find peace with whatever happens. Inner peace is the key to happiness and it’s something you have complete control over. I hope you find comfort if you are grieving the loss of a friend who walked away from you, and I hope you find peace as well very soon. I also hope, that if you have a foundation friend, you value them. It’s all going to be okay. With much love, When life happens...12/16/2017 Good morning everyone! I suppose by the time some of you read this, it won’t be morning, but that’s okay.
Sometimes life doesn’t go as we plan it to. We can wake up one morning and plan for the day to be just wonderful and simple, then only a few short hours after our feet hit the floor, things become crappy and complicated. Sometimes things go south because of our own choices, and sometimes it’s because of other people’s choices that affect our lives as well. The power of choice is something that many, if not all, of us take for granted. We get so caught up in present moments that we don’t think about the after. Little do we realize, that our choices don’t affect ourselves alone, but the people around us. Why do we make mistakes? Why do we choose poorly? Why do we get tunnel vision so easily? Because we’re human. The only perfect person who has ever touched the bounds of this planet was Jesus. Even he had struggles, but he handled them gracefully and properly. Again, were only human. Humans mess up. Humans make mistakes. Humans make bad decisions and choose the wrong things sometimes. Often, actually. Sometimes it’s ourselves that do wrong, but sometimes it’s people we love and care about. However, we must learn to listen to the lesson that life is teaching us. It’s more valuable than any college lecture or class you will ever take. Knowledge isn’t power. Education isn’t power. Wisdom is. Tunnel vision is when we can’t see anything on the other side of “the now”. We get so caught up in what’s going on in the very moment we are in, and we lose sight of the future and what consequences may lie ahead. That’s when we lose hope for better days, and that’s when we mess up. When yourself messes up, that’s when you need to pay attention. Listen to the words life will speak into your ear. Have integrity and take responsibility for your actions, and deal with the consequences that are handed to you. Then move along. Life doesn’t stop. Life will never stop for anyone. It keeps going, and so should you. When someone you love messes up, be understanding and remeber the fact that they are human just like you. Find a way to be compassionate even when you don’t want to be. Find a way to handle your anger, disappointment or whatever you may be feeling about the choice the person you care about has made, gracefully. Handling chaos and upsetting situations with grace and maturity is very tricky, but it makes things so much easier on you and the other person. Most importantly, find a way to be forgiving. Holding on to grudges does nothing beneficial for you, or anyone, for that matter. We have to keep in mind how many times ourselves have messed up, and how many times we have been forgiven and loved, regardless, by the ones in our life. When chaos happens, remain peaceful. Figure out what your role in the process is. Take a deep breath, have a good cry, and pray or meditate, whatever helps. Then get up, let go, and move along. This too shall pass and everything happens for a reason. It is what it is and will be what it should be. Now take a deep breath, and head forward, peacefully, gracefully and love with no limits. You never know who may need it. Sometimes we’re called to be strong for the time being when others we love can’t be. No matter how bad you or someone you love messes up, keep in mind that we are all only human and things are messy, but the power of forgiveness is so important in order to move along. Life goes on, and it’s going to be okay. With much love, Lady Gaga 12•8•1712/9/2017 Hi everyone! I’m so excited to be writing my first blog post! So, last night I went to see Lady Gaga live in concert. Let me just tell you, she puts on a FABULOUS show. She sounds so beautiful live as well! Even when she’s dancing and moving a lot, her voice stays solid and she’s just practically flawless.
I went with my best friend since literally the day I was born, Logan, and we had so much fun! We waited in line from about 2:00 pm and it was freezing cold and windy, but SO worth it. We met some very nice people and ended up standing by them during the concert by coincidence! We decided to go to the “B stage “ because the main stage was more packed than we wanted. We ended up getting on the barricade for the entire concert at the B stage! It was so wonderful! Lady Gaga was so close to us and she pointed and sang to a girl right next to me! Logan brought a stuffed animal with a note attached to it to throw on stage, but security told him not to. I guess the knew what he had planned to do. So instead, we handed it to Christian, Lady Gaga’s boyfriend, who happened to be standing on the other side of our barricade. He agreed to give it to her and placed it on top of a speaker. My favorite song to see was Bad Romance, hands down. The lights, costume, choreography and everything else about it was SO extravagant and perfect! The Cure was another greatly performed song. On B stage, where we were at, she performed on the piano, The Edge of Glory, Come to Mama, and then Born This Way. Then she went back to main stage and performed some more, then made her way back to B stage for the encore which was Million Reasons. Million Reasons was so elegant and beautiful! She wore this silver, sparkly body suit and a pink hat. Then she stood up on the piano and finished the song, then got on her knees and it was lowered down into the stage while she sang an angelic closing. I’ve been to several concerts, and by far, Lady Gaga put on the best performance and had the best live vocals I’ve heard so far. She is so stunning! She’s just pure, genuine talent and beauty and I love how she isn’t afraid to be who she is. She’s very unique compared to anyone else in the musical industry and is so wonderful for making other people feel like it’s okay to be different. I met some really nice people! While in line there were these girl, one in her 20s, one in her teens, and one who was about 10-11. Well, the older one ended up getting drunk and kicked out of the concert before the show even started. She was drinking while we were in line and was being very loud and obnoxious. There was also this nice woman and her adult daughter who vouched for our spots if we had to go to the bathroom or something, and we did for them as well. They were the people who ended up standing next to us at the B stage barricade. While we were in line, some protesters showed up. They were protesting against Fur. They played tortured animal sounds and had megaphones they spoke through saying how Lady Gaga has “blood on her hands” and how fur is wrong because it skins animals alive. Basically, how we’re all horrible people for supporting Lady Gaga and wearing fur. They were quite the characters. When we got inside the venue, we were standing at the B stage and we met this nice couple. They were engaged, and their wedding date was set exactly a year from the concert, so December 8th, 2018. One girl was named Chelsea, and the other girl was named Kelsey. They helped up fight off people trying to push the barricade and just talked with us. Chelsea’s Mom (I think) was with her and she had this duct taped trench coat with all of Gaga’s songs written on it. She was so cool and is a professor at a college I might transfer to eventually. One of the security guards by us was so chill. I can’t remember his name, but he was a big dude with a deep voice and was absolutely hilarious. He gave us gum and let us put our jackets on the other side of the barrier. He stepped out at one point, and when he came back he was giggling and said he had pipe cleaners. He pulled on the end of his sleeve, and sure enough he had about 10 rainbow pipe cleaners up his sleeve. Kelsey took them from him, and I’m not sure what happened to them after that. I think I saw more guys in high heels than I did girls, but that’s okay. Props to them for their confidence! There was also a guy wearing only a speedo, that had Stars and Stripes the the American flag on it, and a bunch of guys who had the most fabulous makeup it made me jealous. I just love how Lady Gaga is so accepting. No matter who you love, what you look like, or what you believe, it’s okay. Everyone is welcome there, if not united. I have this love hate relationship with the human race. I just love how intricate and unique EACH and EVERY one of us are, and also how same we are. I just loved watching and participating in how so many different people get along and find common interests. I love seeing the humanity in people surface and collide with other peoples in the most beautiful way. It makes all the bad in the world feel so small, and that’s why I believe we’ll be okay. Things may look bad, but there’s more good people than evil in the world, even if it’s hard to believe or see at times. Love one another. And love yourself! Choose to see the good in the people before the bad. We are all humans no matter how different. Different is more than okay. Dare to be who you are. With much love, AuthorHello!
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