Dear Friend,1/13/2018 Dear Friend, We haven’t talked in quite some time. I find myself missing you sometimes and it’s hard, but I guess things happen for a reason. I listen to that song or album that we both obsessed over together and my mind goes to you. I can’t help but think about that time we went to that concert together and it was so crazy how real everything was. Our hero’s, right there on stage in front of us! We both cried. We both cried, because a deep love for music was something we had in common. We invested ourselves in these artists and it was so wonderful to have found you. To have someone to obsess over how much that band made me feel and how much I was utterly in love with their music. I remember all the deep talks we had on short car rides and very late nights, when you used to spend the night with me. We would talk about our struggles and how eternity was a deeply bone-shaking topic. We talked about our favorite movies and shared them with one another. We would cook dinners together, and bake cookies and scream at the top of our lungs the lyrics to our favorite songs. Shopping trips and breakfast dates, you getting your first job and me totaling that old pickup truck of mine where we shared so many adventures and laughs, as well as cries. The perfume of yours that I borrowed and fell in love with, so I bought my own and now every time I smell it, I think of you. How your mother basically adopted me and how I practically kidnapped you. All the plans we made and future road trips to pursue. How we were going to live together after graduation and how we wanted to start that band that was hopeless. I gave you a part of me that only very special people get privilege to. I opened up my heart to you and told you everything I’ve ever struggled with and the things that I believed in. You knew me better than myself sometimes, and I always admired your advice and support. I just miss you because now I look back and our bond is a thing of the past. I’m not sure how to fix it, but just know I miss you and I still love you dearly. I don’t know where we stopped being how we used to be or when, but I have noticed how different things are. You have your new best friend, and I still have me. Even if I have been replaced, it’s okay because nobody can take away the memories we shared. I struggled with the thought that you no longer play the role in my life that you once did, and nostalgia is like a cold wind against my bare skin on a winters night, but I am learning to accept the fact that things change. People change. Friendships change. Life’s a change. I still love you. And I’m still here for you. I always will be. I’m saddened by the fact that you may or may not be by my side throughout the future, the fact that you may or may not be a bridesmaid in my wedding one day, or the interim aunt to my children, or the old lady that I go on Cracker Barrel dates with and gripe about how youngsters can’t keep their pants pulled up high enough. Despite my sadness and the ache of missing the shadow of you and I, I hope you are happy, and I truly mean that. I hope you are joyful. I hope this life is everything you ever dreamed it could be and more, even if I’m not privy to be by your side throughout the adventure of it all. I hope you are successful and you find someone who loves you so much, and cares for you as much as you have always cared about others. I hope your children are as adorable as you and that you get to see the world like you always dreamed about. I pray for you, and I wish you the best. I guess some things aren’t meant to last forever, but I’m thankful for the time I did get to spend with you as your best friend. I’m thankful for all the laughs, cried, memories, and inside jokes we had. I promise you this, I will never forget you, because you made me who I am. You were there for me when no one else was. You were there for those 2am calls when I couldn’t sleep because of the things I was going through, and there for me during the darkest days I have ever known. You made my good days brighter and I wouldn’t be here today if I didn’t have your beautiful influence in my life. You were there to help me add to my Peace Tea can collection, even though you didn’t like it as much as Arizona tea. You were the only person, so far, to read the poetry I’ve written. You were there to give me makeup advice and helped me do my hair because, let’s face it, I’m not good at doing hair whatsoever. I appreciate you and all you ever did for me. I appreciate you for all the memories you gave me and for making these last years the best ones of my life, despite the fact that they have also been the worst due to reasons that have nothing to do with you. Maybe one day, we will meet again when we’re older and life isn’t the way it is now, because things constantly change. Maybe then, we’ll catch up on the things that have happened and maybe then we will be friends like we once were. Or maybe, not. I just pray that no matter where the paths of life take us, we never forget each other. I love you friend. And I always will, even if one day your are only but a memory; A somebody that I used to know. With Love,
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Angel Holley
1/13/2018 09:36:06 pm
I love you. Jennifer Holstien and I had our moments when we were away from each other. Not that we stopped being friends just on a “break”. You see where our friendship is now.
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