I’m back!3/3/2018 Happy Saturday everyone!! Sorry for not posting a blog in well, exactly a month... (ooops) life got crazy. It happens. But I’m back and I have something to write about. First of all, I changed up the design of my site a little bit and I totally love it! I hope you all do as well, and if not, then too bad I guess. It’s my blog not yours ;) I also got a ukulele! I have officially named it Lilo, because I find the name fitting and Lilo and Stitch is my NUMBER ONE favorite Disney movie of all time, ever. Lastly, don’t forget to sign up for the email list (at the very, very bottom of this blog post) so you can be email updated every time I post my blog and about other things I hope to do in the future. I appreciate all of you who read my blog and I thank you for joining me on the journey of my writing. Much love!! So, lately I’ve been feeling very anxious about many things and just life in general. It’s discouraged me to write because so many people I know read this blog and sharing personal things like this is a struggle for me because I don’t like sharing my struggles with others, I’d rather hold it all in and maybe vent to 1 or 2 people and move along. But here I am writing about it anyways. Anxiety is something that I’ve struggled with since I was little. (Maybe that’s why I always cried when I was a baby when strangers would just look at me, Mom.) I know the things I worry about are irrational. I know the things I worry about are mostly made up of me overthinking things. I know the things I worry about are temporary issues that I over analyze and entrap myself in. But they are real nonetheless. I tend to fidgit a lot, talk really fast, or simply shut down when I’m anxious. Sometimes these bouts of anxiety last for only a few minutes, maybe hours, but sometimes they last for days or weeks. It’s draining and exhausting and terrifying, but I know how to deal with it now-a-days so it’s alright. For people who struggle with anxiety, I’m sorry. I know it’s tough, but you’re tougher!! Keep pushing through even though it’s frightening. So now, I want to talk about a couple different kinds of anxiety. • Generalized Anxiety People who deal with generalized anxiety tend to uncontrollably worry about things going on in life or around them. Sometimes with no reason at all other than the anticipation of impending doom that sits on their shoulders, even if there is no sign of danger. Kinda like always thinking that the worst case scenario is going to happen. • Social anxiety People who deal with social anxiety often are fearful or feel unnerved about interacting with other people. Making phone calls, ordering food, asking questions, and just being around too many people are struggles people who deal with this may face. This was something I struggled with a lot during my early high school years up until about this year. I felt like no matter what I did everyone’s eyes were on me and judging me. Hating me. Waiting for something embarrassing or bad to happen to me. I hated talking on the phone and ordering food was always a huge hurdle to overcome. Even simple things like getting up to throw trash away at lunch was too much. Being afraid to interact with others besides my little group of friends made it easier to isolate myself which was not healthy to do at all especially since anxiety wasn’t the only struggle I had going on in my life at the time. I know social anxiety may sound ridiculous like “What? Why? How could you be scared of people?! They are just humans co-living on earth with us. How hard can it be?” Hard. Very hard. It’s just the way some peoples brains work. And it’s okay. You aren’t broken or a freak of social anxiety is something you struggle with. Your problems are real. Your problems are valid. YOU are real. YOU are valid. Don’t forget that ever, friends. Although there are several others, This is the last kind of anxiety I’m going to talk about. • Obsessive Compulsive Disorder First of all, no this isn’t where people have to have everything in alphabetical order, neat and tidy, super proper and stress out over things that are crooked. While those MIGHT be things that bother people with OCD, it doesn’t mean that you are OCD if a crooked picture frame bothers you. So quit saying “oh my gosh that crooked poster on the wall makes my OCD go crazy” because that’s not what OCD is. I’m not saying that people with OCD couldn’t be bothered by crooked picture frames, I’m just saying don’t blame little idiosyncrasies on an actual disorder. According to https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/obsessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd/index.shtml “People with OCD may have symptoms of obsessions, compulsions, or both. These symptoms can interfere with all aspects of life, such as work, school, and personal relationships.” I just want to say, no matter what you’re going through or how scary life gets, even if your fears are “irrational” it’s gonna be okay. I know it’s hard to cope sometimes and how strong the hands of worry can grip you. Just know that you’re strong and things get better! Nothing lasts forever. If you catch yourself in an anxiety or panic attack, try doing things to refocus your energy. Ground yourself. Find things you can touch. Grab onto something solid and count out 5 different things that are around you. What color are they? What purpose do these items serve? Are they living or inanimate? Try to slow your breathing and look at the palms of your hands. You are still alive. You are okay. You are inside your own body even if it feels like you’re detached. This too shall pass. It’s gonna be okay friends. With love,
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Nanny Ann
3/3/2018 05:28:56 pm
Love you so much and enjoy your blogs so much. Never quit sharing your heart . ❤️
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Mom
3/3/2018 06:39:41 pm
You are so wonderful. I am sure you are right about the crying around strangers. You had lots of things that pointed to anxiety when you were little. I am glad you are able to talk about it and hope it can help at least 1 person. Love you❤️❤️❤️❤️
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